Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Dream a Little Dream

I dreamt about the baby last night, that I was nursing it in the backseat of a car. It wasn't the first time I've dreamed that I had a baby, or even that I'd nursed, but it was the first one since I've been carrying a little blob around in me. In my dream, it just latched right on and went for it, and left me feeling like it would be obvious and natural, and I wondered how women could possibly need to be trained in nursing their babies. But this was just a dream, and I suppose I'll have to be taught how to properly insert the nipple and plug it against the alveolar ridge, just like many American women.

The baby in my dream was a generic Everybaby - big, dark eyes; a soft, round face and silky, brownish hair on its head. It was genderless, as are all babies spare the colors in which they're dressed. It was an amalgam of all of the babies you see on tv or in magazines, and I loved it. I keep having the feeling that I'm carrying a girl, maybe even two of them.

This weekend we're going to visit Ecohaus for green flooring options and no-VOC paints. We need to replace all of the flooring in the upstairs (and repaint) thanks to the complex social lives of cats. Unfortunately, this means spending around $4/sq ft instead of $1/sq ft to get something guilt-free that won't offgas our baby into asthma.

We're going for a Totoro theme for the nursery, and I can't wait to start painting snails, ferns and jack-in-the-pulpits in the forest on the walls. Plus this will fold a most beloved franchise perfectly into all of the Fuzzy Town shit that I've been dying to start collecting (seriously, the baby flying squirrel and owlets make me squee). I heard a horrible, terrible rumor that Fuzzy Town had closed its business, but the website being online is giving me hope. Plus the store that told me that said it was a Japanese company, and this appears to be in Washington.

10 comments:

  1. I absolutely LOVE Totoro. Fabulously original nursery theme idea.

    God, I sound like such a fag!

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  2. I think you would love this blog, http://meogeollei.blogspot.com/. You remind me of eachother:)

    That felt spammy as I typed it...

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  3. Totoro! We love him. My daughter has a Totoro pillow we found in a little shop in Little Tokyo in L.A.

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  4. Syd - You are such a fag. Totoro does it to all of us - if it didn't do it to you, I'd think you were broken.

    Brit - I do love it, thanks for the link. Though my abs haven't looked like hers (in her "before" pic) since I was a 15 year old swimmer.

    Melissa - Thank god for the internet! I'm chomping at the bit to get the giant plushy.

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  5. HAHAHA! Um yeah, her abs are hot, but she is also does a lot of green baby stuff:)

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  6. I'll just let you have your little fantasy about breastfeeding. Believe you me, you'll be visiting the Providence Lactation Clinic at 28th and Burnside at least 2-3 times when you get home from the hospital. Luckily, they are awesome there, and their little shop is the ONLY place in PDX where I've found great nursing bras. Beware those at Target they are totally flimsy and suck big time. Bravado is the brand that lasts & doesn't feel too nurse-y. (I'm still wearing mine despite having weaned cuz it's so darned supportive yet respectable looking.)

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  7. I had no trouble breastfeeding. It was actually one of my favorite things about them as babies!!! The times at 2 in the morning when it is just you and your baby, no other sounds, nothing else to concentrate on and no distractions were my favorite times! We had a lactation consultant come to the house but that was just a policy I guess!

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  8. Your midwife will probably do well baby visits with you at home to help with lactation if its a problem but I find that just knowing it can be painful and wacky is enough to help calm my nerves.

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  9. Lucky. You get to shop, and redecorate. I want a baby!

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  10. I know this is late, but something no one else mentioned is that it's not always the mama that needs help. All babies are built a little bit different and some of them need a bit of assistance. I wish that I had gotten more help with my daughter; she's been a chomper since before she got teeth. I thought that since she was my second, and I'd successfully nursed my first despite lots of advice that it's impossible to nurse a baby with Down syndrome, I was an Uber-Pro Nursing Mama. Actually, I'm a dork. Take the help if you have even the slightest inkling you or the babe might need it.

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